“Let me make sure that you are my reality, not just something my mind made up.

Let me hear your laugh again, so I don’t go insane thinking about it.”

I started to write those words and it struck me hard to see the truthfulness in them.
“I don’t think you should exclude yourself to one kind of person. Because that is unfair for the rest of the people who are interested in being with you. Personally, I really like you and I really wish you could me give a chance, and I promise you that you won’t be disappointed”

Those words. Those exact words that I had been wanting to tell her. But I don’t have enough courage to tell her.

I wish she was here again. I just want to tell her those words. However, it seems like she isn’t there anymore. I feel like the memory of her isn’t reality anymore, and it’s just something my brain had made up.

I’m going insane thinking about her every night. No matter how good the day had been for me. Every time I do something fun, I always imagine us doing it together.

Everything had ended so fast. All I did is telling her that I like her. I thought we are cool afterward, but I guess that was just her mask. The mask that consumed all the awkwardness that she had against me.

I hope to see her again. And then I can start a new chapter in life.

Shall we start a life, with new happiness.
Strongly I’m sore, but I’m with you.
Very tired indeed, but you’re here too.
Feel complicated, but you solve the way.
The town, the city, the world…
Complete with you in it.
But now you’re gone…
The darkness slowly consume my world.
Will be a while before I hear my name.
Coming from the lip of an angel.
Until then I’ll wait.
For salvation, for redemption.
For your return…

I really want to forget and move on. But every time I see her, my heart just suddenly skip a beat.

I can’t believe a single person would take over my body.

My feet tremble whenever I see her.

My pupils dilate with the present of her.

My heart skips a beat when she speaks.

My brain goes wild whenever I’m with her.

It’s really hard to forget someone when they are constantly on your mind. I thought when I go to sleep, she would disappear. But I was wrong, she continue to be in my dream as well.

For a person that doesn’t believe in love. Love tries to find a way to convince me to believe in its’ existence.